Yep. You read it right! I’m going to talk about the day that I saw myself in a magazine for the first time. Well, that day was actually today – Friday, May 3rd, 2019. And it wasn’t what I thought it was going to be like…
Elementary school me would have thought I was a beautiful actress or model.
Middle school me would have thought I was good at something – a sport, cooking, etc.
High school me would have thought I was popular, wealthy, and worth looking up to.
Y’all. I’m literally none of those things. A part of me wants to toot my own horn – LOOK IT IS ME! But the part of me that’s growing closer to Jesus is like, “sit down child.” It’s not just my face or talent being used to make someone else more wealthy. It’s not me claiming to be an expert in anything. And some people may be reading this because they want something to hate – AKA not popular. I’m still not wealthy in riches or a role model for your children.
I flipped to my tiny retail space of this magazine and saw a link to this blog. A place where people will read about my sexual sin, criminal history, miscarriage, and the many times I’ve been separated from my husband because of his service in the Air Force. I didn’t see a link to ME. I saw a link to see how Jesus changes lives, heals addictions, restores families, and changed my life. I saw the weight of the years I casually posted, not looking for a subscriber, but just wanting to encourage one reader.
I am blown away by the love and support we have in this space. I am so thankful for my close friends and followers for never trying to quiet or tame me to make themselves more comfortable. I am truly just in awe of what Jesus can do with a sasquatch lookin’, Disney lovin’, plant eatin’, under achievin’, mega mediocre mama like me. And if He could use me, He WILL use you.